Awful Thoughts return...

Awful thoughts return after going to the doc and reviewing my latest MRI. NO change, but we had THE TALK....

I could blow at any time...

If I do it is straight to the emergency room and it probably means surgery.

Very dicey surgery because of the locations--my Cavernous Angioma is in my brain stem.

It's dangerous, but I am counting on making it through the surgery but who knows what condition I will be in.

They know for sure it would set me back... Maybe back to vertigo? Double Vision?

Could I survive that again?

So, hopefully I won't leak again--

I am feeling scared, sarcastic, why me...

I havn't slept the last 2 days, so hopefully my spirits will lift by tomorrow...