In the first years of my health issues I ....

In the first years of my health issues I relied heavily on asking Dr. Phil Gorelik how to cope, e-mailing him on bad days telling him I can't do this another day. Asking how long symptoms would last, that I was scared, that I was falling apart....

He always gave me something to hold onto , to grasp to get through another day. To cling to. To hear that I would get better.

He has no idea how much he helped me to cope and to cope for such a long period of time.

Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, months turned into years.

Then, it was finally time for surgery. Brain surgery. Could you imagine? Me?

I have been down the rabbit hole for so long...i

I have been down the rabbit hole for so long, it is an adjustment to come out. At first I started by just popping my head out, smelling the grass again, remembering the old days. Living the life of Alice from Alice in Wonderland took 7 long years. Scary, uncertainty, bizarre, but I'm out of the rabbit hold. Happy to be out, but taking fragile steps....

There is no doubt that my concentration is...

There is no doubt that my concentration is affected since the surgery, really before too.

I hate to admit it, but I have had some memory loss which I am getting back as I come out of my fog.

I have to work harder to concentrate when people are talking to me some of the time.

When you are dancing with death...

When you are dancing with death be sure to not let him lead. He is going to push, try to make you weak, give in, scare you. But, push back, hang on, think of the reasons you have to live for.

Don't let him lead, you have reasons to live for.

Today is my 1st Anniversary...

Today is my 1st Anniversary of my surgery! What a year! It was a rough year , but I'm here and the surgery was successful. I still have a long recovery ahead, but I am this far.

It is a good thing when I walked into that hospital a year ago that I did not know what was ahead, it was better for me to not know very much and trust in them and G-d to take care of me.

I was one of the lucky ones. Successful surgery.Lots of family support. I couldn't have done it without them. And great friends to help me through the healing...