Thursday, March 15, 2012

I always tried to make the time go faster...

I always tried to make the time go faster. I would ask my daughter every morning around 10:30SAM if it was almost time for dinner. What a disappointment when she told me it was so early.
One day in a hospital is like a week in real life.]]So slow.
Alll you have to look forward to is the next meal or finding a comfortable position to rest in. Always a challenge to get comfortable.

I ended up staying in the hospital for 2 long weeks..

I ended up staying in the hospital for 2 long weeks. I was so heavily drugged that I dream t that I was in a different room every night, that one night they took me outside in my bed to take a test somewhere, that one night I was in an RV, all kinds of weird dreams....I dreamt a lot about work an d I kept telling my daughter to call work because I thought I was back home and was in the midst of a real estate deal. I asked my husband how did they let me leave the hospital when I was so sick to go back to Chicago. I asked him how we were going to get back to Stanford. I did have a good dream though, I dreambt that all my friends came with me and some came into my room to visit with me and some of them were patients in the hospital. I thought what a conincidence..
I would wake up and tell my daughter and then she broke the news to me that I was dreaming. They weren't really there.

I finally was ready to go to a room...

I was finally ready to go to my room. My husband stayed in my room all night to watch me. That's love after such an awful day. It is a good thing because I kept trying to crawl out of my bed and unhook myself from the Iv, the cathater, etc. What an awful night....

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

I woke up after surgery to the most frightful...

I woke up from the surgery to the most frightful times of my life. If I moved an inch I started to experience extreme vertigo. I grabbed my husband for dear life to just hang on to me until it passed. This happened over and over again. I have no idea how I coped with it...I don't know how I stayed sane. I couldn't have done it without my husband being there. It seemed like hours , I begged for something to take, but they would not give me anything since I was waking up from surgery. Then, I asked the nurse for a sip of water and she refused. She did request that I sit up so she could do the straw test and I told her there was no way I could move without going into a spin and my neck couldn't be lifted up from the bed. My surgery required cutting through the back of my neck and I was in major pain. Then, the nurse started to get testy and was insisting on my husband leaving. I told her no way and requested she call my doc and see if I had to lift my head up. She called him and he said I did not have to lift my head up. What a night.


Thursday, March 8, 2012

Every time I go to the gym...

Every time I go to the gym I remember the first day back at the gym. I was nervous just walking into the gym. The bright lights, the noise.... Being around people. I just wanted to go home to my comfort zone. I was encouraged by my husband to at least sit on a machine which I eventually did. 14mo.s later and I can now drive to the gym. I mostly swim because I am not comfortable on the machines and I still can't move my head a lot. I could move my head before the surgery, but now it makes me dizzy to look to the left for very long. I can look straight somewhat, my most comfortable position is to the right...